Most Recent Work
My work describes my psychological topography using process as my mode of cartography. My multi media paintings are comprised of digitally printed microscopy manipulated with various chemicals in a painterly manner and layered with other mediums to morph it into an abstract landscape.
I explore my identity with regard to experience, memory, and psychology. I craft my own lense with which to view myself and investigate my interiority.
I have been distressed by my experiences of displacement, loneliness and trauma. This distress manifests itself physically and psychologically by creating feelings of anxiety and depression that are difficult to navigate. My body holds a record of the strength of these emotions. Examining this record makes me realize how fragile and vulnerable the membrane of the body is. Through this examination it has become clear to me that I need to find a way to make a better connection between my mind and body as a way to alleviate some of the discomfort that comes with maneuvering these psychological situations.
I have found that establishing a mindfulness practice is beginning to prove useful as a way to alter my approach to unfolding all emotion and experience through visualization. During this unfolding I am learning not to judge myself or the thoughts that occupy my consciousness. The presence of the work, for me, represents a shift in my ability to be more present in my day to day. Using a process that is rooted in a mindfulness practice will take my investigation down the most authentic path possible by tapping into and embracing the darker side of my psyche.
As a result, I am creating a dualism through my process of image making to supplement visualization methods in meditation. The dualism being both a remapping of the exterior of my body as well as creating an imaginary space, a heterotopia, to find solace in. The resulting images represent the topography of my body, both interior and exterior. These landscapes become worlds of otherness and liminality – a place neither here nor there. Here and there being two ends of a cosmological spectrum: macro at the scale of the landscape, the micro at the scale of my body.
Mental illness, depression, anxiety and trauma are shared daily by people, whether it is through themselves or someone they know or a loved one. However, it is still a social stigma to discuss or see in the open. In many it creates feelings of guilt, shame or embarrassment. It is my hope that I can give the viewer an opportunity to see through my lens (my experiences) and by viewing it in this way will promote empathy, or at the very least a way to open a dialogue about the emotional struggle that many of us share.